A woman awakes aboard a sailingvessel on a vast expanse of water.
Who is she?
Where is she?
What has happened in her recent past?
She start a journey (a physical one and a mental one) to find an answer to her pertinent questions. She is compltely at ease on the sailingvessel. She knows the vesssel. She start investigating the content of the boat. She finds papers and documents. Is she the one in the documents? Or is she somenone else?
When she arrives in a harbour she invents anh identity: she is a Lebanese painter. She has skills in painting and drawing, so it is not farfetched. She meets a sailorman, Loïc Lemoine, who warns her that two men are looking out for her and asking questions on the mariphone. Even the police is on the hunt.
She sails on and this man Loïc follows her at a great distance. From one harbour top the next, she is moving and reinventing herself.
Where are the men in her life ? The musician Jamil, who went to tour in his motherland Algeria. Jean Rolland, a Frenchman born in Algeria, who went back to his roots.
It is a story about identity. Where does she belong with her Irish father, her Algerian mother and her French roots and upbringing? Or does she belong to the sea, where she feels most at home? She tries to find answers when the winds are blowing to fill the sails.
At times this book by Malika Mokeddem (1949) is a confusing book. What is happening? Is there a storyline to be found or does the story justy amble on? At times the emotions of the characters change very abruptely. Still, I kept on reading trying to find out more about this sailorgirl and the people in her vincinity. And to find out her identity and her commitments.
The sole word that forms the title of this book means ‘I will continue’, but also ‘I am born’. Two ways in a way to define her search for identity.
Malika Mokeddem – N’zid – 2001